I'm so irritated at the moment. I will most likely ovulate in 7 days and where will I be? On the road coming back from an out of town job. I leave tomorrow and will come back on Saturday, hopefully Friday, but I'm not even getting my hopes up. I'm already convinced that cycle #3 of trying to get pregnant since the miscarraige will be a bust due to the out of town travel. I just absolutely hate this, I'm not even getting a fair chance at it this month due to my stupid job. Grrrrrrr........ Oh yes, and I'm pretty sure I'll be leaving to return to this stupid out of job in a few weeks to finish up and with my luck it will be in the prime time of cycle #4.
I feel so stupid, since I always got pregnant accidentally in the past, I thought for sure that trying to get pregnant would be so easy. I've been charting and using OPK"s but no success. Don't get me wrong, I realize that 2 months is not a long time, I just wrongfully assumed that it would happen the first time and I'm just now realizing I need to accept the fact that this could take a few months. My RE has given me until April to get pregnant on my own, if I'm not pregnant by April, I am being put on clomid. I'm now telling myself that from now until April is just practice for clomid. And then my mind starts thinking ahead and I remember that T is out of town for most of May so probably no point on being on clomid in May since I don't think I want to take it for recreational purposes. Of course, if it turns out clomid gives me a high, I might just take it for fun after all in May. This was so much easier when I accidentally got pregnant, I much prefer that method.
Can you tell I am being negative today? I still have 3 months until April and I am already convinced it won't happen on my own, geez, I have a horrible attitude today.
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I completely understand your frustration. That's 1/2 the reason why it took us 7 cycles the first time! I've already told work that I may not go on some of the trips. They just don't need to know why other than "for medical reasons" :). GL to you!
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