Hurtful things

On Thursday as I was dropping the dog off for a day with his grandparents, my mom stopped me as I walking out the door to go to work and informed me that she sure wishes I would get pregnant so that she would have a reason to quit her job. WTF???? Now, she's always said hurtful things to me in the past regarding the miscarriages but it shocked me she would say something so completely insensitive to my face. She's asked me before if I didn't take my prenatal vitamins and if I thought that having a cyst removed from my back caused the miscarriages - how nice of her to imply I caused them. It's always a struggle to accept the fact that you didn't cause it but it makes it harder when well-meaning family tries to tell you that you did. I realize she doesn't know what she says is hurtful because she would never, ever say it if she realized this. She is not a mean person at all and it would just kill her if she knew how much she upset me so I don't tell her. But man, that really sucked hearing her say that. I called T on the way to work all upset and he said she had told him the same thing a week ago and he just hadn't told me, thank goodness he didn't relay that message to me. I told both my sisters what she said and they were shocked - nice to know it wasn't just me overreacting. My oldest sister said mom tells her that all the time but she said she had no idea mom ever said to my face. My other sister said I could tell mom that I suspected she had a drinking/drug problem so that mom will begin concentrating all concerns toward her - ha!!

On another note, I bought some new workout video's last weekend and have yet to use them. However, I've dropped 2lbs so I am considering the purchase a success, I am planning on watching lots of crappy TV today with the video's beside me to see if the weight loss continues.